deker18

The truth is, I never use to feel. I walked throw my life blocking all I felt. I never loved as it lead to pain. I never hated as it lead to anger. I never trusted as it lead to betrayal. I could lose someone close and not feel a thing, Just continue on my path like it had never happened. AND THEN I MEET YOU You captured my hart and made me feel. You made me feel love but also envy. You made me feel needed but also hated. You made me feel joy but also great sadness. You made me feel companionship but also great loneliness. And over all the bad, the good shone throw and I was happy to feel. To feel for you. AND THEN YOU TOLD ME

You're killing me. I push you away and I hate myself for it. I bring you close and you hate me for it. My feelings are pulling me in different directions. And it's tearing my insides apart. If only I know how to make it all stop. To stop the pushing and pulling. To stop the love and hate. I bring you close and I hate myself for it. I push you away and you hate me for it. I'm killing myself.

I lie awake at night Hoping that when I role over You will be there For me to hold tight I even miss your hair In my face And the way you wear lip gloss Just to give me that bad taste. Don't forget who I am Because I can't forget you To my one true love That being Kate That being you! xoxo

In the dark I will stay for that is all I feel. Life, love and happiness all thrown into the darkness by the breaking of a final trust I placed in you. When I opened my heart and gave you this trust, I knowingly opened it to the inevitable breaking that is so familiar to the trust I give you. But I did it anyway, hoping that you would see the love I feel for you, in the forgiveness I so readily gave to you, for all the times you broke that trust. But darkness is the prison I give myself for giving that final trust with an open heart and letting you get that close to me. Never, never again will I make that mistake and let someone in. It's too

I sleep less and less each night hopping that the less I sleep the less I'll dream. But no matter how little I sleep the time I spend with you in my dreams grows longer. So awake I try to stay but my body keeps giving way. I really am trying to push you away but I just can't do it, I can't live a day without seeing you in my mind and wanting to hold you in my arms.